Single and back home.

I usually say live life with no regrets but this I can't help but regret so fucking much. I regret getting back with him because if I didn't I would be in New York now most likely happier than ever.  I loved him and I would do anything to be with him. I sacrificed everything for him all to get to where I am now, single and back home. Before I got back with him I was so happy I seriously loved myself I knew where I was going in life, what I wanted. When we first got back together I told him I was going to move to New York and he was the one who convinced me to stay longer so he could save more money and move with me. Then after months go by and we are about to make the move he tells me he doesn't want to move there anymore and ever since I decided to not move there and stay here with him everything went to complete shit. Every day hes all over the place and would tell me something different every day. "Don't worry babe we're going to travel this summer."  The next day "I don't want to travel, I want to go back to school." The next day, "We're going to Japan in June.", The next day, "Oh, now we aren't."  "I want to do this., no I want to do that." "We should do this, no we should do that." I seriously have never been so mind fucked before. He gave me the run around and in return it made me confused and had me questioning everything especially our relationship.  I tried to help and bring positivity into his life and tried to steer him in the right direction, give him some guidance and I just got ridiculed for it. He told me I needed to change, told me I can't be happy all the time. He put me down for my spontaneous ways. I was ready to leave but no I fucking listened to him and look where that got me, single and back home. I'm not even sad that we broke up I am angry that I wasted my love, time and money on him. He is trying to be civil with me but honestly I have no need to still be friends with him after all the shit he put me though. At least now I know It would have never worked between us and I am free from the bullshit and happy again. Plus I'll be home for my best friends wedding and my sisters prom/ graduation. I also have a job lined up and I plan on saving over the summer then finally moving to New York where I belong. My advice is let past relationships stay in the past. Never let a man make you question yourself or beliefs and don't change for anyone especially if that change makes you sad or uncomfortable.