Mid conversation I got distracted by the couple sitting across from us at the bar.
I watched as he massaged his fingers through her hair starting from the bottom of her neck working his way up, sliding his fingers through her long locks while rubbing her scalp. I watched as she closed her eyes and tilted her head to the side. I could feel what she felt for I have been touched like that before too and I yearned for that feeling again.
Therefore I could not take my eyes off of them. My friend probably thought I was being ignorant for spacing him out but feeling something I so much desired was much more important than our conversation. Then, she opened her eyes and locked them with his. I watched him slowly pull her in for the kiss then I looked away to give them some privacy. "Get a room." my friend said amongst us. My response to him was, "It's beautiful really. When you are so into each other you don't think about who else is in the room the only thing on your mind is each other." Then I remembered how it was to look him in the eyes. I was so latched onto him. Actually every time we were together It felt like no one else was in the room just us. He was all I needed and wanted. No one else mattered. I only wished he were as into me as I was into him. Always distracted, always unfulfilled. That's one hell of a heart ache. When you feel so in love that nothing else matters. You let your guard down and hold your heart and soul In your hands and offer it to them. You want them to have it. You want them to have all of you. Hoping they too embrace you and love you the way you love them. Yet they are so easily distracted by other people or other things around them instead of embracing the moment and what's directly in from of them and in the end it's you who suffers. It's you who is alone. And you sit there picking up the broken pieces putting your heart back together. Watching that couple look into each other's eyes and feeling how crazy they were for each other gave me hope. "At least someone's getting laid around here." I joked as I watched them leave the bar.
