Right here, right now.

Sitting in the library reading a book I get the sudden urge to glance up and there you are. As your eyes lock with mine I get the chills and butterflies in my stomach. I look back down at the pages. I can't believe it's you, I can't sit any longer. I climb the stairs and hide in a tall aisle of book shelves. The memories of us flood through my mind. Looking at the books, one catches my eye and as I go to grab it off of the shelf I feel hands grip me at my waist and a chest pressed up against my back. Sending chills through my body I know it is you. I tilt my head back into you as you start kissing my neck. Despite the past, despite everything. Right here, right now. I want you to take me. My mind and body surrender itself to you and within seconds you spin me around, lift me against the bookshelf and kiss me. I'm aggressive and unlike before you are too. Instead of trying to slow me down and be passionate. We are colliding. Before knocking books off of the shelf you carry me over to a table off in the corner. My head is pressed into your chest breathing heavily into you. While sitting on the table you press yourself into me. Pushing my pelvic against yours I feel you. Just feeling you up against me between my legs makes me wetter than ever and you are driving me crazy. I can't wait any longer and I grab hold of your belt around your waist. I pull you into me harder and harder then you lean in and whisper in my ear, "it's yours baby take it". As you kiss me deeply I unlock your belt, pull down your zipper and slip my hand inside your pants. Touching and rubbing you. The size of you excites me even more. I pull it out and you press yourself against me. You lift up my dress and pull my panties over to the side. I try not to be loud as you insert yourself inside of me and then I wake up. Why are you still in my dreams?...

Fathers Day

Today I do not wish a happy Father's Day to my father because of many reasons that I will share with you one day in the book I am currently writing. Instead I thank my mom for everything. In the past couple of months I became closer to my mom than ever. I used to have so much resent and anger towards her because of the false and terrible things my father would say about her. And I wish I wasn't such a fool and closed minded. Today I apologize again for all the things I said out of anger in the past. You are such an incredible, kind, loving person, and you deserve the world. I love you mom so much. Hope you have a wonderful day and beautiful days to come. Xoxo